The Turmoil of September's Mercury Retrograde, as Ego + Soul Battle it Out!

Have you ever been in one of those situations when your Soul knows what is right for you but your Ego is struggling against it? 1008 times perhaps? Soul knows what is in the Flow and alignment of your happiness…BUT…your Ego does not want to hear it? No matter how many times you want to ask that same tough question to yourself…and you keep getting the same answer from the Friend or Soul within, your Ego wants to hear a different answer? Suffering! Turmoil! Aggravation! What is that all about? Ego-fixation perhaps?

Well that was my situation last month when Mercury was retrograde for about 20 days in September which caused difficulties with my relationships, communications, computer problems and travel plans!


And what is Mercury retrograde?

"The purpose of Mercury retrograde is to review and revise our life and our connection with reality. The timing of this universe is geared toward the Sun as it moves through the zodiac. Mercury has an orbit that at times gets ahead of the Sun allowing us to look into the future toward new and innovative ideas. However, we cannot continue in that vein until we come back to the present designated by the Sun and put our new ideas into manifestation. During the time that Mercury jumps ahead, we ultimately have to bring the ideas back into the present to test and evaluate to see how they fit into our life. As Mercury retrogrades back into the present, the connection with the Sun happens as we test drive our ideas and re-align with reality and the natural timing of the universe." ~


Let's just say Mercury retrograde kicked my *SS all over the grid last month! I was warned by both astrologers about this time…Paul Margolin in Byron Bay, Australia [] and Frank Don of California [] as they both told me that September would be a tumultuous month for me. I even compared notes with a friend of mine here in NYC who has the same birthday and she said her month was total turmoil too! Wow! Was it ever!

So did I learn anything after the sun came out of the clouds? and the monkey mind settled down? and the Ego put down her boxing gloves after trying to pick a fight with the Soul for the past 20 days? Thank Goddess YES!

Lesson learned | My Soul knew better, she was right on track, she was telling me that this particular relationship that I was questioning was not in alignment with my intentions that I had set for myself and my future and happiness…especially along this Soul Connections Tour.

The great challenge | my Ego would not accept or budge.

So I went through about 4 weeks of turmoil as my Ego and Soul battled it out. But in reality my Soul was not involved in the battle at all. It was my Ego that would not put down the boxing gloves, and it felt like the monkeys in my mind were also joining the battle as they laced up their huge boxing gloves, trying to tempt my Soul to "put up her fists and fight." My Soul would have nothing to do with it. She just sat back and smiled with a huge open heart and arms wide open and wings expanded.

What turmoil you might ask? Long story short…when I returned to the States and met up with my friend who I was having this internal struggle over…would the relationship be the same as it was when I left 5 weeks ago. A question I asked myself over and over while in Canada + Europe. Crazy. My Soul knew better to let go, but my Ego was fixated on holding on. So I decided…give the Ego the recognition she needs. When I get back to the States it would take only one minute of being back with my friend and the internal war would be over. Funny though. There was no war as only one party was fighting….Ego fighting herself…Ego trying to hold on to her claims and desires…although the misalignment was clear. And that is exactly what happened.

As soon as I saw my friend, the boxing gloves dissolved into the ether, Ego dropped to her knees and prostrated in front of my Soul in total surrender. Ego did not say sorry for the troubles she had caused, but instead said thank you for giving me the time to work it out for myself and the space needed to experience the proof I wanted. The Soul didn't budge as she was and always will be aligned to my complete and total happiness and true freedom.

So that to me was the greatest lesson of "The Turmoil of September's Mercury Retrograde":

The Soul just knows what is right and good and in alignment for you…but don't try to just tell the Ego what to do. Ego is strong and often like a small child just trying to get your attention over and over again until you recognize her, No need to be delusional and ignore the internal battle, you cannot, just recognize Ego's innate nature and acknowledge, and Flow and let her work out her own struggles. "Let Go Let Goddess." And in the end, most likely when one is aligned with their Intention and following their Intuition [last month's Formula to Happiness] then the two can play together in total respect for each other. Ego + Soul bowing to the other. Dancing with each other. Laughing at each other. Riding the waves together. Like good friends. Sometimes they can just be in peace by agreeing to disagree…no need to fight….it usually works itself out….or Goddess or Universe will work it out…and most likely towards the path of the Soul's happiness…but Shhhh! Don't say that too loudly, Ego is happy now. Let's just keep stroking her ego now that Mercury retrograde is over and we are in the clear again.

And for all of you out there who also felt the turmoil…I pray to Goddess that you are taking some time to know what lesson came from that time and that you are embracing October with a renewed respect for the Dance of Soul + Ego.

May we continue to enjoy the Wave Ridings whether those waves are calm or fierce.

Remember so are we!

Kysses! from NYC